THIS HEART

Tried again to tell you
Of a certain thing
There's no magic left to see
Upon this face
I sell to any buyer
For a hill of beans
Been to bat here for your schemes
To give you grace
Hear the waiting breath
Feel the footsteps falling
See the one residing
In the others eyes
Call to life surrenders
Speak some truth why don't you
Hold this grieving child
Words to heal

Oh this heart
It never runs
It never falters
On the Stair to Dreams
But it will always break
And falls to pieces
On broken promises
It's trust misused

Oh now can you tell me
What I'm doing wrong
Where's the crossing to your love
I've never seen
Seems I'm holding on
To a cherished failure
What's the ending written here
Behind these scenes
Set a guiding light
Kiss the wonder wall
Hold our worlds together
Be inclined to dream
Show me how you made it
Take me to a safe room
Put us on some shoreline
It all could end



NŌTA GHRÁ
(LOVE NOTE)

Choimeáas thú im' chroí
Táim mar, Seo
Suite i geiúineas
Táim mar, Seo
Táim, Táim, Táim
Oh!...
Suite i geiúineas

Choimeáas thú im' chroí
An anál im' sćamhóga
An fhuil im' fhéitheanna
Agus anois táim fágtha mar ghuth
Caithfidh tú cromadh śios
Agus cromadh íseal
Chun an guth sina chloisint
Dá mhaith mianamháin agam
'Sé go mhairfinn id' chroi

De shíor, De shíor, De shíor

---(English Translation)---

I kept you in my heart
I am, this
Sat in silence
I am, this
I am, I am, I am
Oh!...
Sat in silence

I kept you in my heart
The breath in my lungs
The blood in my veins
And now I am left just a voice
You must bend down
And lean low
To hear that voice
If I had one wish
It would be to live in your heart

Forever, forever, forever



POINT OF SAFE RETURN

It's not enough to fail
Close to the edge with you
The scripts that cause us strain
Yet in the end
The things we do the words we say
Are all that matters
The love we give the joy we take
Is all that matters

(Turn over, turn back, turn over, turn back)
We just keep playing
The Blame Game

(We're at the point of safe return)
So scream if you want to
(We're at the point of safe return)
Oh I don't blame you
(We're at the point of safe return)
But it's always taken two
(We're at the point..)
For silent nights

When things go bad again
Lost in time, erased
Our memories of then
All we can do
Our silent hours our restless rage
Was all that mattered
All we hold on to is the same
It's all that matters

Oh, Let's think about the fallout
We can make it work
But we must stop playing
This Blame Game



GRAVITY

All things we send into the heavens
Returns to the Mother
Arms open wide receives the fallen
Our lives recovered
Sunrise above the Ganges
I am untethered
Drifts miles above you
A falling star in sleep eternal

I see stars, shine above my head
Like a lovers eyes
Where you go I go - grab me
Like your Valentine
Is there anybody down there
Looking up wondering
About me?
Want to go back or stay here
What point in going on?

Oh sing me to sleep, Sing just for me
Tell me where you are, can you hear me?

Gravity pulls us down
Gravity pulls us down to Earth

There's no word, no voice inside my head
Like a lovers call
Fine up here, I get it - silence
No one to spoil the view
What do you miss about down there?
Things you've lost
Those who spoke about you
Want to go down or float here?
What hope of going home?

You have to let me go, it's not up to you
Oh sing me to sleep, sing just for me

Gravity pulls us down
Gravity pulls us down to Earth



FUTURE

It's raining still
Upon that blistered land
And it seems
The fire's burning
No control
Out of leadened skies
The acid falls
Petrified we stay inside
What used to grow
Can no longer split the seed
And I see
The people falling endlessly
Now I hide I cannot see
The future

I've been giving thought to the future
And I can't keep this to myself
The best years of your life lived underground
Try to stay out of the sun

Falling down
Upon the ground again
And I feel
The weight of madness
Crushes me
In the sky last night
A blinding flash
Magnified oh it hurt my eyes
To watch the glow
In fallout latent snow
So I see the visions
They're haunting me
And I run to shelter from
The blast

I've been giving thought to the future
Tried to keep things to myself
The best things in our lives now burn to ash
Only pictures from the past



THE INNER DIALOGUE

1.SHADOW PEOPLE

The Shadow Voices
--------
Your mother loves you with all her heart!

Mother?
Why does this hurt so?
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( THE ANIMA 1)

And all these memories
Are what remain
Think about it all
Do you still feel the pain?
Do you?
--------

Do you?…

Your mother loves you!..

Oh The Shadow People come
And they whisper their words
They say that I'm not worth saving
No one this lost can be found
But if it takes my whole life
I won't break down again
I won't let them wash me away
On my knees 'till the end

Oh The Shadow People come
Made me sleepless and then
I hear the old wound open
No one in doubt can defend
But do I fight my whole life
With my back to the wall
I can't let them get a hold on me
Full of fear 'till the end
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(THE CHORUS)

Every dreaming state allow
Those dark and desperate ones
Who's voices haunt the drowsy hours
Out of the past they come
--------

Oh The Shadow People come
Still they whisper their words
It seems they take me with them
Gone the Father gone the Son
But if I stand my whole life
Holding on to the rail
I won't look into the place they breathe
I'll be free in the end
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Your mother loves you



2.A CASE OF INSOMNIA

7 INWARD VOICES

My first is my Best self
Speaks only with his eyes
My second is a young man
Not yet tainted with the lies
My third and fourth The Old Men
All wise and full of joy
My fifth is The Higher self
My innocent small boy
My sixth is The saboteur
Who whispers in my mind
My seventh is The Healer
He's the hardest one to find
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I'll take a few deep breaths beforehand
Lets me think about what I have to do
I don't need to prove myself
I have the right to my point of view
But that's not usually how it's done
I won't let you out of my sight
I told you with my caring voice
There's never remission

A case of insomnia
Keeps me from dreaming about you

A bit like turning on the light
The meanings come rush out of the dark
To lift me from myself
I breathe them in and I let them go
The dreams that hover in the room
I count them, one, and I count them all
You tell me with your healing voice
There's always conditions
--------

(THE ANIMA 2)

And all these memories
Are what remain
Think about it all
Do you still feel the pain?
Do you?
--------

A case of insomnia
Keeps me from dreaming about you

The rock upon which I build my world
Is nothing more than feet of clay
I always have to cheat myself
So I can feel I'm worth the gain
Inhale, and falling through the floor
I don't review and I don't recall
I told you with my saboteur
No, you can't have him

A case of insomnia
Keeps me from dreaming about you



3.WITNESS TO THE FALL

(THE SABOTEUR)

I have the will of love but not the desire
I have the desire of love but not the need
I have the need of love but not the emotions
I have the emotions of love but not the gift
I have the gift of love but not the expression
I have an expression of love but not the understanding
I have the understanding of love but only in weakness
I have the weakness of love but without the support
I have the support of love but only in dreams
I have the dream of love but not the reality
I have the reality of love but never the belief
I have the belief of love but never in conscience
I have the conscience of love but without the child
I have the child of love but only for a moment
I have the moment of love but without the will
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Be a witness to the fall
I got to cage him - or not at all
Make a secret with his hands
I got to find out - what he's made of
Before I fall

Need a witness to the fall
Could come to nothing - so make a call
Whispers treason with a word
I want to cry out - what are you wanting
I don't recall

I don't want to talk about it I don't feel the way you do
It ever seems the best intentions
Fall on stony ground again
I can't get through to you
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(THE CHILD)

Can't be a witness to the fall
Can't be a witness to the fall
Can't be a witness to the fall
I can't be a witness to the fall
--------

See a witness to the fall
I've seen the writing - I've seen the wall
So many strings upon his bow
No strength to fight him - fight the demon
Who made me crawl

Don't want no witness to the fall
No need for wise men - stood up so tall
Did I just give up all I have
I need to find out - what he's taken
He took it all

I don't want to talk about it you just don't feel the way I do
Will it always be our best intentions
Fall on stony ground again
Am I coming through to you



4.ACCEPTANCE

(PRELUDE; Upon Reaching Understanding)
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What we had
Is not always what we feel
In unguarded moments
The barriers can fall
Around our ears

Then we -

Look for what is left
Search about the house
There's the letter that you wrote me
The package left unopened
On the floor of this room
I know, No other way
To say-
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(THE ANIMA 3)

And all these memories
Are what remain
Think about it all
Do you still feel the pain?
Do you?
--------

It ever was
The dark that scared me
And brought me back to you again
In the deepest night
In the darkest hour
Effect and cause
That one reminder
Sit down, sit down here
She's gone!

What we had
Is not always what we hold
To each a semblance
Of love unbound



5.THE PENITENT MAN

The cold wind's blowing through my window
Has left me lying on the floor
Take a look around and tell me what you see
It's been my way to close the doors

I said some pretty sorry things to you
I never thought you'd walk away
Until the penny drops we do these things
We never see the price to pay

I don't want to live forever
But I don't want to fade away
It sleeps, but it's never really over
Until someone comes and knocks
Upon your door
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(THE CHORUS)

Penitent man walks a righteous path
Don't look down lest you fall
--------

And so the method can't be faulted
Sit down and make yourself a chain
Oh I, see clearly what you're after
It's not the way I use the pain

I don't want to live forever
But I don't want to fade away
It sleeps, but it's never really over
Until someone comes and knocks
Upon your door
--------

(THE CHORUS)

Penitent man walks a righteous path
Don't look down lest you fall
--------

Mine's not some redeeming motion
Try to see it for yourself
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(AFTERTHOUGHT)

And all these memories
Are what remain
Think about it all
Do you still feel the pain?
Do you?..


(Copyright 2015 Del Palmer)